Met Wendy and Millie at Orchard MRT station after work. Wendy wanted to go and get a dress for her birthday party. It is on this Saturday... Still wondering what to get for her. What do you want??? Any clue???
She got a dress from Daniel Yam. Nice!!! I set my eyes on it the moment I saw it... Same goes for Millie... What Dear said about me is so true... Once I set my eyes on something, I cannot change my mind already... Whatever dresses I saw in that shop after that did not catch my eyes already. My mind is filled with that dress only...
Went for dinner at KFC after that... Also a way to kill time while waiting for Dear to come back to Singapore. Without knowing what to do, I wanted to head to Grand Plaza Park Royal already to wait for him. Wendy suggested that they will come along with us, and go off when he arrive. I was fine with it... It brought disaster...
Told him I will go down to the lobby to meet him instead of leaving a key to the Reception for him to collect... Called and ask why. Told him the reason. I knew it!!! He flare up... Said he did not want to come anymore... Pleaded with him many many times, called him many many times... He agreed to come in the end. Asked them to leave immediately before he arrives.
Just when I settled down, switched on the television, he came. Wanted to have a good chat with him. But this is just so us. Cannot speak to each other about serious stuff face to face... When he started to tell me about what happening when he went to met the girl, I broke down... Was not ready to hear anything then... He gave up... Decided not to continue anymore...
He ate a plate of nasi goreng before falling asleep...
Left the hotel at around 11am today... Headed to Tekka to eat... In the taxi, he told me the whole story... Was filled with more anger... Really do not understand Indian girls... No words to describe them... Too angry to think of a word to describe them also... While eating, met Christina, a former telephone operator in Amara. She is already married with a kid of a month old or so!!! And guess her age... 21!!! She was already registered when I know her. But what I heard from Dear was that on the day of her wedding, she was already 4 months pregnant...
On the way home, in the MRT, kept asking me if I really do not want to talk to him anymore. My answer was yes... My heart hurts deeply inside though when I said it... Really at a lost now... He was very very miserable... It was known all over his face... But... Do not know what I am doing is right... Will he ever wake up one day and realise that he should live the life he wants... he will be happy with... And not one that is simply because his mother wants it that way??? Wake up my Dear!!!
What a joke... Last year this day, I decided to be with him... This year this day... I decided to break with him... 9 January... A day filled with love and sorrow at the same time... So ironic...
{&i'll hold on till the end of time-}
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